yet, but, instead

I had a really good weekend with the girls.

We talked over what we are feeling. We are struggling and feeling that we are not doing enough.
Yet....I help Suzanna everyday after working with the boys and being at school. I am usually so tried when I go over there, after some chai I am better. Yet her brother needs a lot of help and I feel like I do not have enough time to do it. Yet what else am I doing. I feel so selfish that I do spend more time and help him.
Instead.... Instead of being a teacher I only have 6 students the whole day. Instead of being in all the assemblies I am only planning them. Instead of being in the slums I am living on a beautiful farm. Instead of helping children in life and death situations I am helping boys do their homework.
But .... I am not suffering. We have running water, a pool, and three meals a day. I am doing well, but isn't missions supposed to be hard? But, I love it here.
After talking to the girls as they too go through the same struggles God gave me peace. Suzanna did not know any English a year ago, now she is reading, and did her whole Little Mermaid worksheet all by herself! I love the kids that I am working with a school. They are learning and laughing at the same time. And, last Amanda's brother gave her really good advise, " Even though there is a need-doesn't mean that it is your calling." still..

Please pray for all those in India.