"Who am I?"

"Who am I?"

Is a question that you might hear from one of the boys every other day. The answers vary from...

I am the hero of the zero

I am Bhorot Thapa

I am a child of God.

I, on the other hand has to answer, I am selfish.

I say about a million times a day, "Sharing is Caring!" But as the boys pointed out, "Kelly Mam always says, "Sharing is Caring, but when she has something that she doesn’t want to share she says, "Sharing is not caring in this situation."

CONVICTED!!!!

Okay so true I did not want to share my food. But as I talk about going home it is ALL about me.

I am going to miss this place.

I really need a strong community.

I will miss the boys.

Pray for ME, ME, Me!

As I read through Ruth the prayer are never for themselves it is always for someone else. I do not have the same prayer life. I thought that the boys will not miss me. I thought that they would be glad not to hear my silly saying, listen to the songs that I have made for them, or nag them to brush their teeth because they might fall out.

It hit me yesterday after Susanna’s mom said that she is counting down the days that we are going to be together, that even though I am super selfish, I am loved.

Pray for me. tee hee.

We can do it!

I did it!!!!!!! I can live without all the things that I thought I needed- a good job, a car, my friends and family- ( I really do miss the last two!) But I know that I can do anything.

It has been fun living with 7 other girls and doing life with them. All of our lives are different but we all have a common goal-

Please God and go in HIS direction not our own.

Amanda has been struggling to figure out direction in her life. She is such an inspiration to me. She has said, "I really want my life to matter." I have learned so much from her.

There is a seventeen year old girl here that has come on not the best circumstances. She has been helping with the boys, at the school, and also preparing for testing as soon as she gets back to school. She has been here for a month now and is admitting that she is really proud that she has been able to do it. She was taking away from everything one of the hardest blows was that she was a way for her social life. The girls did have prom for her. I am really proud of her.

The other girls Katie and Kalana had every choice that you could imagine but choose to come to India. They too had to give up their social life, dating, everything to grow up have a ton of responsibilities and help take care of 16 crazy boys that are not always nice to them. I could not have done it at their age.

Iam so glad that I have had the opportunity to share live with these girls. I am really going to miss them!

HOW?

How am I going to find a balance between my life here and my life at home?

How am I ever going to grow up?

How am I going to save the world?

How am I ever going to change?

How am I going eat everything at once when I get home?

How will ever find someone?

How did I get lice?????

How can I have million babies that never grow up?

How do you raise good kids?

How does Jesus love me so much after all that I have

done

I know one answer

God is love 1 John 4:8.

That is all that matters!

Fractions

I did the I love Jesus

The boys love to take pictures. I can see you, Rahul.

We did stations of Jesus's life, as the other groups went the boys had time to draw with sidewalk chalk.

trekking, or eating as much as possible

I feel like I am half here and half home.

I call them half days. It was so much fun to have my sister here and to hear about everything that is going on at home, but not that the countdown has begun- the last trip to Mussorri was this weekend. It is hard to be all here. I am excited but also really scared to go home. I have been here for so long it is hard to think that I will not be with the boys and living the farm life. I have been waking up in a bad mood because I have to boil the milk again and the laundry is still in the same bucket that it was in the other day. I am missing the washing machine, my car, and my friends. I love the girls here but I really miss my friends and my life. I know from past experiences that I am not going to sugar coat all my relationships because I know that everyone else has moved on and I am in Never Land.

Easter was a half- half day. Being here with the boys on holidays is a lot of fun, but I missed the sun rise service and the sheep but looks like a dog cake. It was a good time to really reflect what Jesus did for me. I want to be WHOLE. Not a good Christan one day and other day hope that Jesus can not hear my thoughts.

Pray

that I am in one place and my heart is all here as the countdown to going home starts to creep up on me.